http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/-t1.htm This my Journal I've been keeping concerning my path to getting the Gastric Bypass. This Journal is a no holds barred, very open and revealing part of me. What is said comes straight from the heart. Do not think I'm putting myself down in places please. I have a different way of viewing things about me. Sun, 25 Oct 2009 01:09:01 GMT 10 http://i276.photobucket.com/albums/kk32/WyldFyreKatt/Forum%20Stuff/ForumFrontBMPmine.jpg http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/-t1.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2009-entries-t136.htm WyldKatt 10-24-09 57th entry Its been nearly a year since I last updated this journal. I've felt more failure then anything and just have not had the heart to continue with negative entries as it seemed like that's all I was putting for so long. But I've had it told to me a couple times that I really should update and write again. So, since I've had a couple interesting experiences recently I thought I would. First the update as to what has been going on with the weight issue. Then (more then ... Journal Entries Sun, 25 Oct 2009 01:09:01 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2009-entries-t136.htm#920 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2009-entries-t136.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2008-entries-t112.htm WyldKatt 11-13-08 56th entry I had my 2nd adjustment 2 weeks ago. I had not lost weight by the surgeon scale (I'd lost 1 pound at nutrionist office and another pound at family doctor office, aka 2 pounds in 2 weeks). I did loose a few ounces type thing but I don't count it if its not full pound. I did fine until after the shot was done. For some reason this time I started bleeding badly. The blood soaked an area about 3 inches long by 1 wide on my pants and shirt then started dripping. I was ... Journal Entries Thu, 13 Nov 2008 23:27:12 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2008-entries-t112.htm#367 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2008-entries-t112.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2008-entries-t107.htm WyldKatt 10-4-08 55th entry I've been getting so many people asking me what the band is etc I figured I'd go ahead and re-explain it in here. Please realize that I'm using my own terms for things and go with what I've researched and been told by surgeon. Different doctors may do things differently. You'll have to talk to your doctors for better information on what they do when etc etc etc. What I put is just a simple guide as well as showing what I have been through. Basically the band is ... Journal Entries Sat, 04 Oct 2008 18:53:26 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2008-entries-t107.htm#347 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2008-entries-t107.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2008-entries-t105.htm WyldKatt 9-3-08 53rd entry I saw the surgeon today. I've lost 18 pounds since surgery 2 weeks ago. People have been telling me the last couple to few days that they are seeing a difference. Apparently its most noticeable in my face. It dawned on me today that from my highest weight of almost 440 (I was like 438 or 439, not sure if I gained any after that but I don't think I did). Anyway it dawned on me that I am getting very close to having lost 100 pounds total. I am allowed to go ... Journal Entries Thu, 04 Sep 2008 04:00:47 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2008-entries-t105.htm#339 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2008-entries-t105.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/august-2008-entries-t101.htm WyldKatt 8-17-08 50th entry 2 days left till surgery. I've been struggling with a lot of emotions. I've tried several times to make myself update this but my mind just wants to jump like rabbits. For a few days I even had incessant chattering going on in my brain that was driving me mad! Thank Goddess for Bill and Sue. They helped get that slowed down. BTW by the incessant chatter I mean I couldn't stop thinking and wondering about anything and everything and it was to the point I couldn't even ... Journal Entries Mon, 18 Aug 2008 00:02:05 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/august-2008-entries-t101.htm#332 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/august-2008-entries-t101.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/july-2008-entries-t52.htm WyldKatt 7-25-08 48th entry I came across this in saved files. I'd forgotten I'd wrote it during my 2 month absence from the internet. The vision is a dream I'd actually had. Rough time frame of this writing is Oct 2007. Not sure if it should go in journal yet. (((((UPDATE...I decided to go ahead and make this an official entry))))) Have you ever felt like theres a void in your life thats being fulfilled yet you still feel that void as painfully as ever? I am not sure exactly how ... Journal Entries Thu, 03 Jul 2008 16:29:45 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/july-2008-entries-t52.htm#164 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/july-2008-entries-t52.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/june-2008-entries-t40.htm WyldKatt 6-25-08 46th entry Sorry to all those that have been waiting for updates. I've spread the word, I just kept forgetting to update journal. My brains fried. What else is new lol. So I saw the surgeon on the 9th and he approved me. Since that time I've been waiting for news from the insurance company. I'm supposed to hear something by the end of this week. Its been 3 weeks already blah. I called the surgeon office the other day to check up on whats going on since this is THE final ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 10:22:01 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/june-2008-entries-t40.htm#80 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/june-2008-entries-t40.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/may-2008-entries-t39.htm WyldKatt 5-16-08 44th entry I figured I better give a brief update. I had to delay calling surgeon (this time my situation, not problems with doctors) due to some money issues (can't pay co-pays without money ya know). But I did finally call and was supposed to have appointment on the 19th (May). I got a call back to find out that in 06, when all this began, the nutritionist put down I wouldn't be eligible because I smoke and drank. Drank? A few times a year (maybe once a month or so if ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 09:50:31 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/may-2008-entries-t39.htm#78 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/may-2008-entries-t39.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/february-2008-entries-t38.htm WyldKatt 2-20-08 43rd entry I had my 6th and final weigh in today. I lost 2 more pounds. Over all from my original high weight of 440, I'm down' to 370. I impressed my doctor with my holding steady with the weight I lost during this 6 months and getting my sugar down to normal level. My blood pressure jumped a little bit but I was so tense today its a wonder it wasn't sky rocketed. So now the final crunch begins. The 6 months of notes are to be faxed to the surgeons office and from there I'm ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 09:47:54 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/february-2008-entries-t38.htm#77 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/february-2008-entries-t38.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/december-2007-entries-t37.htm WyldKatt 12-31-07 42nd entry Don't really have much to tell as of this point. I have my 5th weigh in either this week or next then there is only 1 more to go. Sure has been a long wait. I'm pretty sure I've gained some weight back again. Not surprising with the holidays and trying to quit smoking again. Yea, smoking, the bane of my life 2nd to the weight. I'm very frustrated again with not being able to get completely off the smokes. I'm so bored all the time now all I want to do is eat and ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 09:46:22 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/december-2007-entries-t37.htm#76 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/december-2007-entries-t37.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2007-entries-t36.htm WyldKatt 11-3-07 39th entry (((Up until the point where I say its a couple days later, I had written an off-liner. This one is really long because of that. I'll be doing some frequent shorter posting the next few days or so because I have more to tell from what was going on while I was off-line))) I've been sitting here off-line for nearly 2 months now. Man has it been hell! BORED is my constant state of mind. I've not once had the urge to to write until this entry. I struggle to keep my ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 09:35:25 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2007-entries-t36.htm#73 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2007-entries-t36.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2007-entries-t35.htm WyldKatt 9-7-07 38th entry Well I met my new doctor yesterday (9-6) and she is so friendly and she spent a good bit of time listening to me explain what all is going on and what I need her to do! I was very impressed. Professional too but not to the point of intimidating. More along the lines of "I know my job, you know you, lets work together" type thing is how I feel. Granted, she may prove me wrong (*says sarcastically..like that would be a first lol) but hey, she listened! And listened. ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 09:29:54 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2007-entries-t35.htm#72 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2007-entries-t35.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/august-2007-entries-t34.htm WyldKatt 8-4-07 36th entry Hey the entry that matches my age lol. Maybe I'll be a smartalec and match my next one to my birthday to age lol (37 on the 21st, Goddess I feel old while at same time I don't lol). Fair warning, yet again this one is more then likely going to wind up being a book. But there are things I discovered about myself recently that I feel I must share. I need to open up more to make this journal "complete" in a sense. I've talked a lot of myself, how I got to be ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 09:19:10 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/august-2007-entries-t34.htm#70 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/august-2007-entries-t34.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/july-2007-entries-t33.htm WyldKatt 7-2-07 34th entry No updates on insurance approval and no new doctor visits lol. I just felt like writing a little bit about part of my "support system" via internet friends etc. I've been writing this journal for nearly a year now. The longest I have ever kept! Its not easy at times but there are a couple people that keep me going just by simply asking if there are updates. I thank the Goddess for all the people that have put up with me during the last year. Who knows ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 08:56:55 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/july-2007-entries-t33.htm#68 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/july-2007-entries-t33.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/june-2007-entries-t32.htm WyldKatt 6-3-07 32nd entry Sooo, Are ya ready to cringe yet folks? No need to, its a good day lmao. My infection is nearly gone (still seeping some slightly poisoned blood but its getting a better red and not bleeding as much since it "exploded" and its not much swelled) and my fever finally broke yesterday leaving me weak but getting better quicker whohooo, my head cold is nearly gone and I think I have figured out some of the problem with me being so sick so much lately. See ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 08:42:10 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/june-2007-entries-t32.htm#66 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/june-2007-entries-t32.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/may-2007-entries-t31.htm WyldKatt 5-12-07 27th entry Guess its been a while since my last update. I've been feeling rather burned out lately. The only thing that catches my interest of late is playing EverQuest. Kind of funny right now that I have a bit of urge to write but gotta have the music of the game booming in my ears. Could be cause of how sick I am to that the music is soothing and giving me a bit of a push. Not much though *sighs* I had the sleep apnea test. Went fine. Kind of weird having all the wires hooked ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 07:00:48 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/may-2007-entries-t31.htm#61 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/may-2007-entries-t31.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/april-2007-entries-t30.htm WyldKatt 4-2-07 23rd entry There is actually a point and lesson to this rambling, long entry. Today means there is only 1 month to go of waiting for the sleep apnea test. So little time. Yet so distant it seems impossible that it will ever get here. I'm going down hill faster because of the frustration and pain levels. I keep trying to tell myself just a few more weeks. Not much time compared to all the time I've been through already. It ain't working. I've begun to notice the depression ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 06:35:51 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/april-2007-entries-t30.htm#57 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/april-2007-entries-t30.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/march-2007-entries-t29.htm WyldKatt 3-17-07 21st entry Well I have my first visit this Thursday with the sleep apnea portion of the surgery process. Its been a LONGGGGG couple months. If all goes right, and it doesn't take long to get the actual sleep test done (I am only seeing the doctor Thursday), I can call the surgeon office with hopefully good news (aka no sleep apnea). As far as I can tell the only steps I have left until the actual surgery are: Sleep apnea doctor visit, sleep apnea test, inform surgeon of results, ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 06:19:04 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/march-2007-entries-t29.htm#55 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/march-2007-entries-t29.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/february-2007-entries-t28.htm WyldKatt 2-24-07 20th entry Not much to update on concerning the gastric bypass. I will know nothing until after the sleep apnea and thats another month away. This waiting is killing me. I'm stressing so badly now that my blood pressure reached triple digits on the bottom line for the first time ever (116, top was 180something, I never have understood that other then to know it ain't good). But then I also have bronchitis that I'm dealing with too. Not to mention a quack of a doctor thats ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 06:15:54 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/february-2007-entries-t28.htm#54 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/february-2007-entries-t28.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/january-2007-entries-t27.htm WyldKatt 1-27-07 19th entry I'm still waiting on the sleep apnea test. I've called a couple times to find out what is going on but all I get told is they are setting several appointments and I'll get a call when its done. Apparently its going to be 2 appointments. 1 to see the doc and 2nd for the overnight sleep. Oh yea that one should be fun, NOT. I'm a night owl by nature. Even when I have to be up at 5 am for work, I'm usually never in bed before 12 lol. Definitely not getting the surgery ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 06:10:59 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/january-2007-entries-t27.htm#53 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/january-2007-entries-t27.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/december-2006-entries-t26.htm WyldKatt 12-6-06 16th entry Well it has been a long month. Not a lot went on, so I was quiet. Thats about to change. I have an appointment to see the surgeons office (not sure yet if I actually see him or if I see his people first) on Dec 18th. I met the goals I had to other then I lied about the smoking. I'm down to 2 or 3 cigs a day and getting sicker each day when I light up so the Chantix is doing its job! I figure another week, 2 tops and I'll be completely off. I feel horrid ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 06:02:07 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/december-2006-entries-t26.htm#50 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/december-2006-entries-t26.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2006-entries-t25.htm WyldKatt 11-9-06 15th entry Well I went to the doctor today and got good news and bad news. Guess I'll do a good news bad news write-age today hehehe. Good news.....I have actually dropped 3 pounds since late September (last time I was there, I wasn't able to make my Oct appointment). Don't know how that happened but its a good thing. Bad news.....I have arthritis in my right knee now in addition to my spine, thus the severe sharp pain I've been dealing with for about a week. Good ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 05:58:04 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2006-entries-t25.htm#49 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/november-2006-entries-t25.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2006-entries-t24.htm WyldKatt 10-17-06 12th entry Its been a bit longer then I normally have been going in between postings so figured I better write something. I'm in a down slope on my emotions the last couple weeks. Real bad. I'm struggling to keep from berating myself for failing to quit smoking and am gaining weight badly. I have to guess no less then a 10 pound gain since beginning of Sept *sighs. I must yet again point out the fact that not all my entries are going to be upbeat, funny and thoughtful. ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 05:40:52 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2006-entries-t24.htm#46 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/october-2006-entries-t24.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2006-entries-t23.htm WyldKatt 9-3-06 5th entry Not really in the mood to write today but figured I better as its been a few days since last entry and I need to keep making myself do this so it becomes habit forming. All the ideas I had a couple nights ago have just poofed from my brain. So I guess I'll just do a little update on things and skip the life pondering moments this time. Knowing me though it will still turn out to be a long entry rotflmao@me. I love to write even when I don't feel like writing. I was ... Journal Entries Wed, 25 Jun 2008 04:52:16 GMT http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2006-entries-t23.htm#38 http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/september-2006-entries-t23.htm http://wyldkattsanctuary.darkbb.com/journal-entries-f5/august-2006-journal-entries-t22.htm WyldKatt Friday 8-25-06 1st entry Well this is my first serious journal entry. I figure I'll talk about my path to getting thin again. Maybe writing about what I am experiencing will help others. Or maybe not. Who knows. Only time will tell. Knowing me, I won't even keep a steady journal about it lol. I'm rotten like that. Start something then get side tracked. So heres a bit about me. I'm 5' 11", 36 and obviously I'm fat. My max weight was 440lbs and as of 8-22 I was down to 398. ... 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