Needs a name Poem by CrystalKatt

Sands of time
Strange in mind
Twisty turmoil

What to do
What to think
Emotional upheaval

It all seems so unreal
This final chance to heal
Never again to let my heart feel

Strange how pain helps
Weird how music soothes
Odd how Goddess speaks

Guilt over the surreal relaxed
I'd thought to be totally wrecked
But I'm not completely vexed

Deep down is pain
But the rest is at peace
I don't know what to think

Could of all the self control I've extended
Be what has lead to my self destruction
Is this release from that need to control
The final way to save my weary soul

Has the freedom from holding back
Been the healing strength I've lacked
It doesn't seem right not wanting to cry

I don't understand this sense of freedom
Is it disillusion or something true
Confusion, turmoil, are they freedoms test

Goddess give me the strength
I don't understand why I feel this way
Or does it all come down to
I finally ripped my own heart out completely